Sunday, August 28, 2011


In twenty four hours, the list will release. This time tomorrow my agency representative may be looking at the face of my little girl. Oh the excitement and anticipation of it is almost too much.

But here's the thing - tomorrow may be just like every time, with no Willa on the list. I know I will be so sad, but I also know there is a bigger picture. Bottom line, if we do not receive a call, my daughter wasn't on the list. One day she will be. One day, my phone will ring. My hearts desire is that it is tomorrow, but if it isn't, I still trust Jesus. He is never late!

I want to share a poem with you that my sweet friend Cheryl (also praying for a call tomorrow! If they get a call and we get a call, there is a good chance we could travel together! Wouldn't that be a HUGE God thing?) gave me.

Wait by Russell Kelfer

Desperately, helplessly, longingly, I cried.
Quietly, patiently, lovingly God replied.
I pled and I wept for a clue to my fate,
And the Master so gently said, "Child, you must wait".
"Wait? You say, wait! " my indignant reply.
"Lord, I need answers, I need to know why!
Is your hand shortened? Or have you not heard?
By Faith, I have asked, and am claiming your Word.
My future and all to which I can relate
hangs in the balance, and YOU tell me to WAIT?
I'm needing a 'yes', a go-ahead sign, or even a 'no' to which I can resign.
And Lord, You promised that if we believe
we need but to ask, and we shall receive.
And Lord, I've been asking, and this is my cry: I'm weary of asking! I need a reply!
Then quietly, softly, I learned of my fate
As my Master replied once again, "You must wait.
"So, I slumped in my chair, defeated and taut and grumbled to God,
"So, I'm waiting.... for what?" He seemed, then, to kneel,
and His eyes wept with mine,
And he tenderly said, "I could give you a sign.
I could shake the heavens, and darken the sun.
I could raise the dead, and cause mountains to run.
All you seek, I could give, and pleased you would be.
You would have what you wan t~~ but, you wouldn't know Me.
You'd not know the depth of My love for each saint;
You'd not know the power that I give to the faint;
You'd not learn to see through the clouds of despair;
You'd not learn to trust just by knowing I'm there;
You'd not know the joy of resting in Me
When darkness and silence were all you could see.
You'd never experience that fullness of love
As the peace of My Spirit descends like a dove;
You'd know that I give and I save.... (for a start),
But you'd not know the depth of the beat of My heart.
The glow of My comfort late into the night,
The faith that I give when you walk without sight,
The depth that's beyond getting just what you asked
Of an infinite God, who makes what you have LAST.
You'd never know, should your pain quickly flee,
what it means that "My grace is sufficient for Thee."
Yes, your dreams or your loved one overnight would come true,
But, Oh, the Loss! If I lost what I'm doing in you!
So, be silent, My Child, and in time you will see
that the greatest of gifts is to get to know Me.
And though oft' may My answers seem terribly late,
My most precious answer of all is still, "WAIT".


Ashley said...

I'm praying for you sweet friend!

(and you better CALL if you get the call)


Stephanie said...

Oh, the've been through this so many times...and your faith has grown. I am so praying that THIS is the list and the WAITING is over for you.

I am so eager to hear your good news!!

The Raudenbush Family said...

Praying, dear sister, praying that she is on the list this time!

Tara Anderson said...

My stomach is in knots for you! I know the wait is TERRIBLE, but tonight I'm also savoring the work God was doing while I was waiting on Him to show up and blow my socks off. He is GOOD...better than anything we could ever imagine...and he hand-selected your Willa before the foundation of the world. Each second on His kingdom clock that has ticked by has been drawing you nearer to the day you see her face. He's waiting to show her to you at *just* the right time...the time that most displays His glory and leaves you in wonder of all that He is. Oh Michele, it's going to be incredible!!!!!

Johanna said...

Praying right now that the Lord would reveal your daughter to you tomorrow, praying for the strength to fully trust Him!! Excited for u!!!!

Naomi said...

Hope deferred makes the hearts sick but when the desire comes it is a tree of life!

Praying that this is it!

Beautiful poem!

Still want to connect with you sometime. Not sure if you had emailed and I did not get it again!


Valerie and Jeff said...

You are on my heart this morning Michele! I'm so prayerful that your WAIT is coming to its end and that your sweet daughter was in yesterday's list and that you are in the process of medical review and putting her on hold/acceptance! Do hold on and savor this time if you possibly can. God is preparing you AND your daughter for His perfect timing. As hard as that is ... God knows your heart and how much it is hurting during this time. Reach out to Him and let Him fill the void and comfort you as only He can do.

Jennifer O'Cain said...

Praying for you today whether you are rejoicing in a referral or coming to terms with more waiting.
Beautiful poem, I loved it!