FINANCES

I was thinking about money for the adoption today. Usually its so overwhelming, when it comes to mind, I quickly push it away (funny how I can do that with this, but with health stuff, I get a little nutso).  Today, I decided to "tackle" it and figure out exactly where we are.

I am super excited to say that we have enough money to cover ALL of the fees (new agency post placement fees, visa fees, orphanage "donation" fee). So all we are short now is our travel expenses. Unfortunately, that is the biggest expense. Time is on our side though! We haven't even received a referral yet - so we hopefully will have time to raise/save the remainder.

If we all travel, the total travel expenses will be somewhere around $18,000. I know that seems outrageous. I know that taking our children is controversial. But I believe in our heart that it is the right decision for OUR family. After my trip last year, I just can't bear to travel without them. I really needed them last July, and the thought of being there again without them breaks my heart. I have said all of this before, and I am sorry to repeat myself. I just also believe that they have been on this journey with us for the last 2+ years - they are anxiously awaiting Willa's arrival as much as we are. It's their journey too. We have never left them before, why would start now? Anyway.... so. $18,000. That is our new number.

If we get a referral this month (Jesus willing!), we will have about 4 or 5 months to come up with that money. GULP. Ok that makes me feel a little panicky. It's time to pack up these thoughts and file them away for a while. LOL. I've had enough anxiety this week to last me a lifetime.