Tuesday, January 18, 2011

WITH TEARS

So last night, I alternated staring at the phone and staring at the clock. Waiting. Hoping. Willing that phone to ring. It didn't. Honestly, I didn't expect it to. I just hoped it would.

So this morning, I got up feeling... deflated. Disappointed. Hopeless. I don't know why. I know MY Abba has this in His Hands. I know that He is on the throne and He is faithful. I know that, yet I was still feeling hopeless. I began to really doubt everything (yeah, just call me Thomas).

Then I checked the mail.

And that was when He showed Himself faithful to me, to her, once again. That is when He said, "Michele, just because you feel hopeless, that doesn't mean you are hopeless. Just because I am not working on your time table, it doesn't mean I am not working."

We received a letter from Show Hope. We have been awarded a $3,000 grant! I literally stood in my driveway and balled. He is working. Maybe not as quickly as I would like. His ways are perfect. Mine are not. When am I going to learn to just trust? Trust with no "buts".

Wanna know something else about that letter? It was dated 1/4/2011. It was postmarked 1/12/2011. It came 1/18/2011. It was written two weeks ago and mailed 6 days ago. It came from Tennessee. It should have come 1/14/2011. It takes two days for mail to reach me from TN. But it came today. Today, when I needed it more than ever. It also came completely open and dirty. It was a miracle that it came at all considering it was completely open. Jesus is in the details guys. He knew today my heart was breaking. He knew today, I would need to be encourage.

I am in awe. In awe of my sweet Father. He loves me more than I can even imagine. He loves Willa just as much.

Praise Jesus!

6 comments:

Cheri said...

Oh, great news! Although, I was hoping to see a picture of a sweet little face, I'll settle for this good news. In some ways waiting for a referral is like waiting on your pregnancy test results. If it is negative, there is always next month...

melody said...

I love how the Lord works. I also love that he has allowed you to see him working. I remember those difficult days of waiting. I will prat that he will keep encouraging you and revealing himself in this journey

Tara said...

Like I told you earlier, God is on the move! He knew you needed it today.
I am SO happy for you and praising God right along with you!

Tara Anderson said...

Rejoicing with you in our Father's provision, my precious friend!!!

Shelley said...

Oh Michele! God is so good, isn't He? I love that He loves us enough to show up on days when we need Him most. He cares about each of our disappointments and wants us to know it. Rejoicing with you in the Show Hope grant!

Stephanie said...

Celebrating with you!!!