Lord, please let my Hope be closer than she appears. Right now, she seems worlds away. Honestly, she may as well be. I did talk to my agency today and she said that as long as my travel approval comes by June 21st (totally a possibility) we could probably leave with the July 8th group. If it does not come by the 21st, there is another group leaving around July 29th. So at least there is a couple of dates in mind. A couple of dates that are just next month. When I say it that way, next month, it doesn't sound so bad. If I had to say August, UGH - that would make me feel sick. Actually the thought of leaving July 29th makes me feel sick, but at least it's still in July. I am just praying for July 8th.
On the other hand... July 8th? Holy crap that is so soon! I can feel panic rising up in me thinking about that. That is less than 5 weeks from now! It is just scary no matter how you look at it. I think if we had the finances squared away, I could relax a little more. However, at this point, we are still short $5000.
If we leave in July, I just don't see how we can come up with that kind of money in such a short amount of time. I am actually starting to get nervous about that. You know what though? When we started this journey, I asked Brad if we were going to be too afraid to step out of the boat... or if we were going to be a Peter and focus on Jesus and trust him. We chose to step out of the boat. I guess right now I am still being a Peter, my lack of faith is causing me to sink. I need to once again fix my eyes on Him. He will not let us sink. He will take care of us and provide. I just have to trust that.
For now, I will just think about that picture - I will hope and pray that Hope is closer than she appears.
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I so wish I had the financial ability to lessen your worries right now, but with Ayden's next surgery looming on July 9th..........I just don't have any extra to give. I know God will provide for you.......it is what He does. You know this journey is from Him and therefore He will make handle all the details. I cannot wait to hear about Miss Willa and to meet her.
Hi! Our Article 5 was issued 5/20. We are hoping we can travel July 2. The countdown has REALLy began. I packed my kid's clothes today that are staying home and trying to do some deep cleaning. : - )
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