I remember when I was pregnant with Jackson, I would worry so much about labor and delivery. I was *not* happy with my options to actually get the baby out of me. I felt surely there was a 3rd option. Surely there was a better way to have a baby than the traditional way or by c-section. I was seriously fretting. Well, fast forward 7 and a half years, and I am fretting again.
As long as I can remember, I have wanted to go to China. It is all I have thought about for the last two years. Now that travel is imminent, I am starting to shake in my boots. I do not want to get on a plane. I do not want to leave my husband or my children. I do not want to leave my house. I am seriously getting worried. Surely there is another way to get my girl home?
I really think I would feel better about this whole thing if my husband could travel with me. He makes everything ok. He makes me feel safe. The thought of traveling to the other side of the world without him literally makes me want to cry. It'll be ok...
Think good thoughts. Think good thoughts.
Sunday, June 6, 2010
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Is it too late to switch plans and take your husband? I would be scared too (that's just the way I am.) However ... likewise 7 years ago I was in your same shoes on the birthing options not sounding like real options! hello?! ACK! ... but ya know, when labor hits that LET'S GET IT DONE attitude takes over and it just becomes what it has to be. (That still to this day, 3 sons later, still amazes me! I am confident you will pass through the fretting and get that same mothering strength to guide you with God's help!
In the words of my 4 year old, "That's just the way God made me."
I am sure He has made you with much grit and gusto to make this happen with grace!
But I am glad you are reaching out for support--that is so cool.
I hear ya, Michele. I'm in a similar boat. If we travel in December, I'm definitely without Andrew and if we travel early next year I may be without him depending on whether or not we have the funds available for him to travel. I wake up in the middle of the night thinking about it. I'll be praying for you....
I traveled with my 16 year old daughter and left my husband home-his choice. It is nerve-wracking, but you'll be okay. Make sure that you have a Chinese cell phone-Panda Phone can either deliver it to you here at home or at your first hotel and let you leave it off at your last hotel, just like a rental car. Being able to call home any time will go a long way toward making you feel more secure.
I can image it being scary....I wouldn't want to do it, but so many people have done it...I think once you have your daughter, you will forget about all the worrying. hang in there
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