AWAA is getting a group of people together to go to Guizhou, China in July. It is a missions trip, and the people going will be doing some work and loving on the kids there. I sent an email earlier this week requesting information. It is definitely something I would love to participate in, but this year probably wouldn't work. I was just curious about the details/cost more than anything.
I am trying not to read between the lines here, but I can't help but find hope in her call. She was calling to tell me I am welcome to participate, but she recommends waiting. She said if we received a referral, traveling to China for a mission trip in the summer would be too close to traveling to pick up Willa. I completely agree, and like I said, I was mostly just curious. The "thing" that got me though was she has always been very conservative when I have asked her about when we could get a referral. She has always made me feel like it could be a long time. In fact, she made my social worker have a chat with us about the "potentially long wait". So the fact that she discouraged me from signing up for a mission trip traveling in July just made me think maybe, just maybe, she feels like it would conflict with our adoption travel.
Now like I said, I could totally be over thinking this... but! That was the whole purpose for her call. So maybe it wont be long! I have to find hope where I can get it! LOL!
I have to be honest - I live a pretty boring life. When the call came today, I could literally feel a surge of adrenalin. After I hung up the phone, I felt like I had just stepped off of Space Mountain. Shaky, heart racing, a little nauseous. HAHA! It took quite a while for me to relax after that. It is insane what one phone call can do, especially when it wasn't the phone call you hoped it would be. If I felt like that after hanging up today, how am I going to feel when the real call comes?