Saturday, February 12, 2011


I recently started a new Beth Moore bible study. It's called "When Godly People Do Ungodly Things". I will be honest, when I first began, I felt a little "above" (for lack of a better word) the things Beth was discussing in the study. The first week talks about being seduced by Satan and the world. While I am not perfect, by any means, I just didn't feel like I struggled with a lot of the issues she addressed. I promise I don't mean that I am unteachable - quite the opposite. It's just I didn't feel like I was being "seduced". To me, that word mostly means sexual things. I can say with 100% certainty, I do not struggle with any type of sexual sin or temptation. So how could this study apply to me?

Boy was I wrong! I am so glad when I am wrong about stuff like this! I am so glad I didn't quit. I am learning the word "seduction" doesn't just apply to things sexual in nature. I am learning that you can be seduced by Satan in many areas. Areas that include anything you allow to tempt you - food, gossip, anything really.

The study goes on to talk about Peter. How God allowed Satan to "sift" Peter like wheat. It really made me think - sifting like wheat. Refining. Could it be that God has been sifting me? I think so. I think He is still sifting me. I think I am learning that I can not rely on my own strength. I can not rely of anything of this world. I can only rely on Him. Everything is completely out of my hands and out of my power.

This bible study has created a hunger in me. I want to know more. I want to be able to see when the enemy is trying to seduce me. I want to be strong in my faith and in my relationship with Jesus, to stand against the enemy's schemes. I don't want to put this study down. It has planted little seeds that I want to explore. For instance, I want to know more about fasting. I get the basic thought behind it, but I really want to understand it. Another thing I discovered is that I want to learn to read Greek or Hebrew. There have been a few verses that I looked up, and if I had of been able to read those verses in Greek, I would have gotten so much more out of it. The verses do not change in any way, but reading them in Greek brings a deeper meaning. I am intrigued!

I really feel like Jesus has something to tell me. I feel He is drawing me close for a specific reason. I am not going to stop until I hear Him loud and clear.

While I am posting, can I ask a prayer request (the bible study also points out the importance of intercessory prayer. It said that if you don't have a group of people praying for you, find some!)? I have a few, if you would please pray for our family, I would really appreciate it! I would be honored to do the same for you, please leave a comment with any request you may have! Anyway, here are my requests:

*The new waiting child list comes out soon (maybe the 21st). Please pray that, God willing, Willa is on it!

*I am starting to get more and more nervous about reviewing a file. What if it isn't accurate again? Please pray that her file will be complete and an accurate representation of Willa's medical needs. No surprises.

*Finances - we are still about $6,000 short (actually that alone is a miracle. 6 months ago I never would have dreamed being matched again was even possible financially.)

*Timing. While I deeply want God's timing, I know His timing is perfect, I desperately want my baby girl. There is this sense of urgency in my spirit. It is heart wrenching.

That is all, for now. Thank you so much. I hope everyone has a wonderful Valentine's Day!!


Melody Lietzau said...

I love this post and the reminder that satan is always deceiving us. I will be praying for your sweet family. God is already working out his plan for your sweet Willa and we will pray that he will give you peace and patience and a speedy referral :)

Tara Anderson said...

I did that study several years ago, and loved it. It really helped clear up a lot of what was going on during my battle with depression.

I'll be praying that you see precious Willa's face soon. I know the wait is hard, but I trust that God will provide ALL your needs at just the perfect time. :)

Stephanie said...

Thanks for sharing what you are learning! I've loved the Beth Moore studies I have done.
Lifting your requests before the Lord! :)