TRAVEL

Clearly, I have OCD. I will pick something and research it to death. I have covered Jessica'a province, her special need, backpacks (she needs one, ya know), etc... My current OCD topic is travel.

Obviously, the big question is when? However, the bigger question for me right now is who will be traveling? Originally, I was insistent that my whole family was going. It was (is) very important to me that they are all there for their new sister. In an ideal world, of course we would all travel. I am learning though, that all of us traveling is not going to be possible. First of all, we are no where near having the money needed for all of us to go. Secondly, we are just wondering if it would just be easier if they all stay home. I know with three, soon to be four, kids, easy is typically not a word we use to describe our situation. We are used to things not being easy, and we usually don't shy away from things others may consider difficult. However, Jackson is a homebody. I mean a real homebody. He is also the most likely to not go with the flow. I really think he would be miserable in China. Jameson is pretty easy, but he is a total momma's boy. I think he would have a very difficult time with all the attention Jessica will get. Julianna would be very easy and very excited to be there, but I can't take her if I leave the others behind. So, what to do, what to do?

Brad and I have talked extensively about this. I think we have decided that I will go and he will stay home with the kids. It isn't ideal, but we aren't comfortable leaving them without one of us for 2+ weeks. We never leave them, not even to go to dinner alone. So it seems incredibly unfair to just leave them for 2 weeks.

So I am going to China alone. As in all by myself. As in solo. For 2 weeks. Am I freakin out? Not yet. Will I? Probably so. LOL. If anyone wants to go as my travel companion, let me know! LOL. I wont hold my breath.