Sunday, October 24, 2010


Depends on when you ask me, I suppose. I bought a new pocket calendar for 2011. As I was flipping through it tonight, I just thought for a bit about the days, the months ahead.  Right now it's a blank canvas. It could be great, it could be devastating. I get this way every year as I reflect on the year to come. What does 2011 hold for us? Will this be my last Christmas with my Ma Ma? Will we all be healthy in 2011? Next Christmas will Santa bring gifts to my FOUR little ones?

I don't know. Honestly, if I think about it too much, I will scare myself silly. Fear has a stronghold on me, and if I give into it, it can be debilitating.

Fortunately, I have Hope. Peace. Comfort. No matter what happens in 2011 - it will not come as a surprise to my Father. He knows what every second holds. I do not have to fear. It's hard to remember that sometimes.  As I looked at my little calendar tonight, I could feel the fear rising up in me. No matter what the year holds, I will always have my Father to run to.

Now I just have to hang onto that! When I was younger, my mom and I would always joke around saying, "Name it and claim it!" whenever we were hoping God would bring us something that we needed.  So for 2011 - I am praying for health and protection for my little ones, protection from the enemy in my marriage, and for my Sweet Willa to come home and I am naming it and claiming it! LOL.

You know what though? Even if Jesus choses to tell me no, He is still Worthy. He is still in control. And I will still trust Him.


Stephanie said...

Amen! 2011 is in His hands and so is your daughter. Praying He unites the two of you soon!!

chrissy said...

YES YES YES YES. You really hit the nail on the head. I'm walking with you in that season of being told 'no' and making the conscious decision to trust God regardless stay faithful to Him. I'm so glad to see you doing the same.

Come see us soon! Let's get a date on the calendar ASAP.

Tara. said...

I can't even believe it's almost 2011. And I'm so excited to see what the next year brings for you and your family!

TanyaLea said...

AMEN sista!! :)

I love that you and your mom played the 'name it and claim it' game. That's so cool!! Sounds like a GREAT game to me!!

Afterall, as Proverbs 18:21 says:

"Death and life are in the power of the tongue: and they that love it shall eat the fruit thereof."

Or in other words, what we put into words, is speaking death or life into our lives. We can literally curse our own lives with our words, or speak LIFE into it. I guess that's why God instructs us over and over again to guard our tongues and choose wisely what we speak.

And I'm so glad you turn to God when fear creeps in. Especially since we know that it is only a tactic of the enemy.

2 Timothy 1:7~

"For God has not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind."

AMEN! ...and AMEN!!! <><

love you, girl!!!